blessed, favored, loved...

Jeremy says he cant understand why God has favored me so much He answers everything I ask no matter what the circumstances are. He also wonders why every time I fall short of a godly woman, God would always answer me immediately with comforting verses in the Bible. He says he can't figure out why I am so favored by God that my circumstances are always easier and more blessed. Envious yes he is at times.


Blessed. Yes I think I am. I feel that I am. God has always been so generous with His blessings to me - money, things, people, events and surprises. Some would even tell me I am a girl who should be envied once someone starts counting the blessings He had showered me with. The blessings are already numerous even countless that I have no right to rant and to be sad and to be angry about anything in life. It seems like He knows exactly what I need and what I want exactly at the right moments of my life.


Favored. Have you ever found a girl who walks out of God's will 3x a year only to be brought back again and again, only to be blessed with so much that she cant contain the favors  and blessings and joy? Well, according to Jeremy, I am one girl who is like that. Every time I walk out of God's will, He will always bring me back, blessed me, comfort me, spoil me and love me despite no effort on my part to seek and pursue Him. And mind you, my name Gillian means 'favored by God."


Loved. I dont know why God loves me so much that He always seeks to make me happy and make me feel loved. He loves me so much that I got my God's best after only praying for him  for less than a year. Other girls I know have been praying for years now and are still praying but they are not even getting word from God that the guy is about to wake up or whatnots. While I, on the other hand, have prayed only for a few months when Jeremy had found me, started to pray for me and pursued me. Now Jeremy and I are together, having the best love story God has written for us both.


Blessed. Favored. Loved. Thats is what I am feeling right now. Everyday I wake up thinking, "God, what did I do to deserve all of these blessings? I am the brattiest, most undeserving girl yet You love me so much You sent Your only Son to die for me on the cross. You love me so much that aside from Christ, you blessed me so much to give me the best man for me, my God's best, my answered prayer."