i've been wanting to write an open letter to my future daughter but i never got the chance to sit down and write it down... so here i am, facing the laptop, typing away words that i hope someday, my daughter will be able to appreciate.
To my dearest future daughter Lian Chasity,
Let me start by saying I am sorry. Sorry for all the mistakes I have committed to you and to your dad. I am not the world's most perfect woman nor will I be the best mother in the world. But as you read this letter, I hope I have fulfilled the promise I have made to myself years ago. That you will never be void of a complete family just as I had been. I hope that as you read this letter, your dad and I are still together and still in love as the day God put the two of us together. I'm pretty sure you have heard the story of how God wrote my love story with your dad and I hope that you will always be inspired to wait for that God-written love story that God has prepared to be yours in HIS perfect time. If there is one thing that I never told your dad yet (I'm pretty sure the moment I publish this blog, he'll know), it was one of my prayers to God. When I was asking for my God's best, the one I will marry, aside from the list that I wrote of the traits and characteristics I want in a man, I prayed to God to give me a godly man who will never leave me nor my children. I prayed for someone who will always be patient and understanding if ever I get so nasty, mean or unreasonable just so that there will never come a point in your life where you will blame me that you grew up without a complete family.
Yani, my dearest baby, here I am praying that when you finally decided to get married, you will get married because you are in love and loved and that you wish to start your own family based on the overflowing love that you feel. Not just because you want to escape from home, leave every painful things behind and just escape from us. I hope that as you read this letter, you are not committing the mistakes of the generations before you. I love you my Lian Chasity and I know your daddy loves you too.
Mommy Yani
(Lian is from my name Gillian. Lian means lotus which symbolizes purity. It is also the name of my favorite author Lian Hearn whose full name is Gillian. Chasity is a name that Jeremy got from God. It means chaste and pure.)
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